If Only

satu lagi film drama romantis jadul yang masuk top list gw. judulnya IF ONLY, rilis tahun 2004. gw kira ini bakal jadi drama romantis biasa yang sweet gitu, gataunya.... sedih. sedih banget men. dan gw bener bener ga siap buat sedih. tapi gw suka. padahal gw jarang bgt suka film sedih. aduh film ini romantis banget (tapi sedih), tapi pokoknya bagus deh. yang main Jennifer Love Hewitt sama Paul Nicholls. ceritanya.......... ga happy ending, awalnya agak aneh ada permainan waktunya gitu, tapi indah banget. suer.


Ian Wyndham: I have to tell you this and you need to hear it. I loved you since I met you, but I wouldn't allow myself to truly feel it until today. I was always thinking ahead, making decisions soaked with fear... Today, because of you... what I learned from you; every choice I made was different and my life has completely changed... and I've learned that if you do that, then you're living your life fully... it doesn't matter if you have five minutes or fifty years. Samantha if not for today, if not for you I would never have known love at all... So thank you for being the person who taught me to love... and to be love.

MADRE

“Kadang-kadang kamu harus terjun dan jadi basah untuk tahu air, Che. Bukan cuma nonton di pinggir dan berharap kecipratan.”
– Starla, Menunggu Layang-layang.

“Tadinya saya pikir dunia ini nggak adil, Starla. Ternyata saya salah. Dunia ini adil. Cause you know what? Ke mana-mana kamu selalu kelihatan berdua. Tapi sebenarnya kamu sendiri. Selalu sendiri.” “Kamu memang terjun ke air. Tapi kamu pakai baju selam.”
– Christian, Menunggu Layang-layang.

groom's vow

I promise never to take you for granted
Or utter a word unkind
Never allow my affections to be recanted
Or stop marveling at your behind
To also marvel at your warmth, your wit
Your refusal to condone animal slaughter
Your wisdom, your laugh
Your inability to boil water
To be your best friend for the rest of my life
And to thank the God you're not sure about
For fooling you into being my wife
- Hugh Grant, Did You Hear About the Morgans?

Strangers Again

“I think that if life separates us, and we end up in totally different places, I’ll always remember when our paths aligned for this period of time; and I’ll be thankful for that, and hope that wherever you are, you’ll be thankful for that too.”
- Strangers Again

happy summer holiday!

Summer is the time when one sheds one's tensions with one's clothes, and the right kind of day is jeweled balm for the battered spirit. A few of those days and you can become drunk with the belief that all's right with the world.

If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now?

Dear Claire, "What" and "If" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will. All my love, Juliet.

- Letters to Juliet

from grey's with love

CRAZY BEST QUOTES FROM GREY'S ANATOMY!

“Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.” - Meredith

"From now on, you can expect that I'm gonna show up. Even if I yell. Even if you yell. I'm always gonna show up. Okay?" - Derek

“Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big 'pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window', unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.” - Meredith

"She's my person. If I murdered someone, she's the person I'd call to help me drag the corpse across the living room floor. She's my person." - Yang

"The expected is what keeps us steady. It's the unexpected that changes our lives forever." - Meredith

"If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it." - Meredith

"I'm not gonna get down on one knee,
I'm not gonna ask you a question,
I love you, Meredith Grey,
and I wanna spend the rest of my life, with you." - Derek

happy weekend!

setelah sekian lama, akhirnya gw jalan jalan santai lagi sama temen temen sma.

kemaren gw ke central park (setelah belajar buat ujian soca yang melelahkan dan menjenuhkan) sama jason dede nenek cath agita moses jebe. seperti biasa, kita cuma ketemuan tanpa rencana ntar disana mau ngapain.

ntah gimana, pergi sama mereka, jalan jalan sama mereka rasanya begitu mudah. ngga perlu mikir mau ngobrol apa, obrolan ngalir begitu aja. apaaa aja kita ketawain. ngga perlu ngerasa ngga enak sama cowo cowo kalo kita pengen masuk ke toko cewe, karena mereka udah biasa. hahaha. segalanya begitu mudah, rasanya gw ngga perlu mikir apa apa. kita makan di sushi tei, jalan jalan bentar liat liat central park yang kmrn rameee banget, terus makan lagi di nanny's pavillon. ngga dapet tempat di dalem, akhirnya kita makan di luar. ternyata suasana malem di central park enak banget (kalo cuaca lagi adem). kita ngobrol, foto foto, ketawa. ngobrolin masa sma yang ngga ada abisnya.

kalo setiap weekend bisa kayak gini,
aku mau hidup seribu tahun lagi.

“We are friends and I do like to pass the day with you in serious and inconsequential chatter. I wouldn't mind washing up beside you, dusting beside you, reading the back half of the paper while you read the front. We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often.”
-Jeanette Winterson quotes

happy anniversary!

long time no seeeee! padahal waktu sma gw hampir ngeblog tiap hari :'( hahaha malah mendramatisasi suasana. update in live, gw skrg ud kuliah semester dua di fk. skrg lg blok humaniora, which is sangat santaaaii. kerjaan kita bolos tiap kuliah hahaha (kapan pinternya coba). lumayanlaahhh, blok refreshing. EH tapi besok gw ujiaaaan AAAAAAA (tapi skrg malah ngeblog)

gw mau cerita, sabtu kmrn gw ke bandung buat dateng ke pesta anniversary ke-50 tahun (perkawinan emas) cici oma gw. acaranya di salah satu restoran chinese food di bandung. bukan pesta besar-besaran. pesta yang sederhana tapi sweet. semua orang kenal semua orang. gw ngeliat gimana pasangan emas ini, yang masing-masing umurnya udah lebih dari 80 tahun, udah menikah selama 50 tahun, punya anak, punya cucu, mereka masih saling mencintai satu sama lain. mereka pake baju kembar, bergandengan jalan ke deket kue waktu mau potong kue walopun dgn tertatih tatih. sweet sekali :') semoga bokap sama nyokap gw juga bisa gitu nanti. saling cinta sampe kakek nenek.

waktu itu ada quote di twitter, yang gw lupa siapa yang ngetweet, tapi kurang lebih isinya begini "the most romantic stories is not how romeo and juliet died together, but how my grandma and grandpa grew old together." so true :')

the happy couple! long live, stay healthy and happy! :D

teteeep harus ada foto gw mejeng hahaha

anyway, bentar lagi paskah ya, ngga kerasa udah mau paskah lagi. happy easter guys! share the looovee


You may only be someone in the world, but to someone else, you may be the world.
-Unknown

love ;)

If there's too much distance, then race towards him.
If it doesn't feel like you're next to each other, then hold him.
I guess in this world, there is no easy love.

-secret garden

four weddings and a funeral

Charles: There I was, standing there in the church, and for the first time in my whole life I realised I totally and utterly loved one person. And it wasn't the person next to me in the veil. It's the person standing opposite me now... in the rain.
Carrie: Is it still raining? I hadn't noticed.
Charles: Let me ask you one thing. Do you think - after we've dried off, after we've spent lots more time together - you might agree not to marry me? And do you think not being married to me might maybe be something you could consider doing for the rest of your life?
Carrie: I do.


gw sendiri juga ngga ngerti kenapa gw sukaa banget film romance jadul, abis semuanya sweet bangeeeeeeeet!

titanic

"Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it brought me to you ... You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise."

Jack to Rose - Titanic

the wedding singer

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growin old with you
I'll miss you, kiss you, give you my coat when you are cold
Need you, feed you, I'll even let you hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in the kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man to grow old with you
I wanna grow old with you..

Robbie - The Wedding Singer

benda keramat dari bembi

moses bilang ke gw buat jadiin blog gw ajang nostalgia. well, kayaknya gw selalu menjadikan blog ini ajang nostalgia deh dari dulu. hahaha.

hidup gw lagi menjenuhkan sekali. tiap 2 minggu gw ada ujian, dan seminggu menjelang ujian itu rasanya hidup udah ga tenang. jadi intinya hidup gw belakangan ini jarang banget tenang. tapi yaudalah, lagi lagi ini jalan yang udah gw pilih sendiri. skrg drpd stres, mari kita bernostalgia!


oke, gw tau muka gw di foto itu ngga banget. haha. maklum, stres. tapi inti dari foto itu bukan muka gw, tapi benda kecil yang gw pegang. waktu itu kelas 2 sma, baru masuk ipa, masih hijau, belom tau keganasan-keganasan di ipa, belom tau keganasan... bu lena. gw inget di suatu pagi yang cerah, bembi dengan ceria membagi bagikan benda keramat itu ke kita. katanya kemaren dia main di timezone terus tiket yang dia dapet dia tukerin itu. menurut dia keren, yahhh kita semua tau lah selera bembi. hahaha peace bem. itu jadi kalo kepalanya dicabut bisa jadi bolpen gitulah. kita sih seneng seneng aja dikasih gratis, langsung kita taro diatas meja.

seharian kita mainin terus tuh bolpen. mukanya dicoret-coret lah, topinya dicabut lah trus diganti tutup botol aqua lah jadi kayak pak haji (betapa ngga produktifnya kegiatan kita dulu waktu sekolah, pantes ga pinter pinter). dan kita ngga berenti main waktu pelajaran bu lena. gw masih inget waktu itu gw duduk sebelahan sama moses dan dia lagi main mainin bolpen itu. entah gmn, tiba tiba kepalanya patah! jadi kepalanya mengsong gitu (aduh apa sih bahasa indonesia yang baik dan benarnya), kayak tengleng gitu. dan gw juga gatau knp pd saat itu gw merasa itu lucu banget, gw sama moses ketawa ngakak. dan bener aja, kita ngebangunin macan tidur. si bu lena ngamuk, gw sama moses dipanggil ke depan kelas. itu pertama kalinya gw liat bu lena ngamuk dan kita berdua ketakutan setengah mati.

gw sama moses diomelin di depan kelas, gw masih inget persis semua kata katanya dia waktu itu, tp kalo diceritain sekarang rasanya udah ngga lucu lagi deh. hahaha. tapi di dalam ingatan gw itu masih lucu banget, tiap inget kejadian itu gw bisa senyum senyum sendiri. haha!

Friends are the bacon bits in the salad bowl of life.

miss you like hell

OHMYGOSH I MISS THIS TIME LIKE HELL!

olip, dede, dan gw. dulu kita tidak terpisahkan :'( we share lots of things together. sometimes about stupid things that we shouldn't tell anybody ;) sekarang olip di taiwan, pulang masih januari, duit buat beli tiket pulang dipake buat belanja lagi! bego begooooo! pokoknya kalo lu pulang geng belakang hrs bersatu kembali lip! gila ms inget ngga sih spot favorit kita di koridor tempat para princess ngumpul wkt istirahat? HAHA ayo lip, lu pulang kita makan mi dan kerupuk mimaaah trus hengot di GI trus kita gila gilaan di panncook!

I have friends in overalls whose friendship I would not swap for the favor of the kings of the world.
- Thomas A. Edison

glee - FURT

You know when you're a kid, adults will tell you a lot of things. But one thing they neglect to mention is how...sad life can be.
-Burt (Glee season 2 episode 8)

my sassy girl

The 10 Rules:

1. Don't ask her to be feminine
2. Don't let her drink over three glasses
3. Drink coffee instead of Coke/Juice
4. If she hits you, act like it hurts. If it hurts, act like it doesn't
5. On your 100th day together, give her a rose during her class
6. Make sure you learn fencing and squash
7. Be prepared to go to prison sometimes
8. If she says she'll kill you, don't take it lightly
9. If her feet hurt, exchange shoes with her
10. She likes to write. Encourage her.

my sassy girl, salah satu film favorit gw sepanjang masa. kemaren sebelom ke ultah nenek, gw dede jesen syukur main di rmh gw dulu dan kita nonton film ini. hasilnya? syukur sama jesen nangis di akhir film. hahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaa

anywayy, happy birthdayyy evelyn lee! wish you all the best! BFF :D

while you were sleeping

Or have you ever like, seen somebody and, and you knew that if only that person really knew you... they would, well, of course, dump the perfect model that they were with... and, and realize that you were the one that they wanted... to just, grow old with.

kedokteran

oke, belom sampe satu semester gw di fk dan gw serasa di neraka lapis enam belas. gw sekarang sedang menjalani blok 3, blok 3 itu sekitar sebulan dan ujiannya ada... tiga. belom termasuk ujian praktikum yang ngga kalah hellnya. sekali ujian midblok itu bahannya sebanyak ulangan umum pas jaman sekolah, dan ujian endblok itu bahannya sebanyak bahan uan. wtfff men! belom lagi, tiap abis ujian, kita akan selalu dihantui sama nilai yang bisa kapan aja tiba-tiba dipasang di papan pengumuman dan bisa diliat semua orang. belom lagi, ujian praktikum, terutama praktikum anatomi.

blok 3 ini pertama kali gw dapet praktikum anat. jadi bahan gw blok ini adalah sistem saraf, otot, urin. bayangkan, lo akan dihadapkan sama potongan potongan mayat (kadaver), dan lo harus hafalin bagian bagiannya. pertama kali gw praktikum anat itu saraf, gw kehabisan kata kata. di dalem lab ada sekitar seribu jarum pentul yang ditusukin ke bagian bagian tertentu di potongan kadaver itu. kebayang kan otak kita itu kayak berlekuk lekuk gitu, MASA TIAP LEKUKAN ADA NAMANYA SENDIRI SENDIRI??!?! entahlah, semuanya terlihat sama di mata gw.

setiap hari gw bertanya tanya apakah gw ud milih jurusan yang tepat? gimana kalo ternyata gw salah jalan? gimana kalo gw ngga akan bahagia selama 5 taun yang menyiksa ini? gimana kalo gw bakalan mati muda gara gara stres? beneran, gw ngga tau jawabannya.

gw cuma tau apapun yang gw jalanin sekarang itu tantangan, dan gw, honestly, terlalu angkuh buat mundur. gw pengen jadi dokter, gw pengen bisa ngobatin anak gw sendiri nantinya kayak bokap gw sekarang. sekarang gw lagi down down down banget, gw jenuh dan maleeessss banget rasanya tiap hari harus belajar dgn rutinitas yang membosankan, tapi gw ngga boleh kalah sekarang. tapi suer, gw butuh refreshing! desember, cepatlah dataaaangg!

anw, gw lumayan aktif di twitter beberapa bulan terakhir dan gw follow beberapa adik kelas gw di loren. dan hampir tiap malem gw baca twit mereka streslah mau ulangan besok, bahannya banyaklah, ga ngerti apa apalah. hahaha. gw seperti melihat gw dulu, persis kayak mereka. anak sekolahan yang sama sekali ngga tau betapa luasnya dunia, yang sama sekali ngga tau apa yang lagi nunggu mereka di depan. kuliah itu, gw ngga tau apakah jurusan lain juga kayak jurusan gw, tapi di fk, kuliah itu 34879814704371289578419703 kali lebih ribet daripada sekolah. waktu kelas 3 sma aja rasanya hidup ud berat ya? haha. tryout hampir tiap hari, tugas, ngurusin univ dll. lo ngerasa bener udah push diri lo to the limit. guys, just info, itu semua belom apa apa.


but don't, don't ever give up.


Don't be discouraged. It's often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock.

quick post

hidup sangat susah akhir akhir ini. bukan buat gw aja, buat semua orang di indonesia kali ya. kuliah gw bener bener bikin tekanan batin. tapi kesusahan gw masih belom apa apa dibandingin bencana yang menimpa sodara sodara kita di mentawai dan sekitar merapi, seujung kukunya aja ga ada kali. banyak berdoa buat mereka semua dan berenti ngeluh tentang masalah kita. life is hard, but we have to move on.

gw mendapat quote ini dari twitter, dan gw setuju banget. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

semangat! #prayforindonesia