Strangers Again

“I think that if life separates us, and we end up in totally different places, I’ll always remember when our paths aligned for this period of time; and I’ll be thankful for that, and hope that wherever you are, you’ll be thankful for that too.”
- Strangers Again

happy summer holiday!

Summer is the time when one sheds one's tensions with one's clothes, and the right kind of day is jeweled balm for the battered spirit. A few of those days and you can become drunk with the belief that all's right with the world.

we DO have life

tadi gw nyetir jalan pulang dari kampus abis ujian OSCE (ujian skills lab - semacam ujian keterampilan dokter kayak tensi, periksa abdomen, balut luka, dll) terus gw dengerin cd lagu. ehh tiba tiba keputer lagu Get It Right-nya Glee. What can you do when your good isn't good enough, and all that you touch tumbles down? - terus gw entah gimana gw langsung kepikiran sama osce, sama kehidupan gw di fk. mau berusaha sekeras apapun terkadang belum juga cukup baik, belum juga mencapai standar yang ditetapkan. udah belajar osce siang malem, eh bisa aja besoknya ngga hoki dapet penguji killer, langsung terpukul, hafalan ilang semua, ga lulus (amit amit jangan sampe terjadi). apapun yang kita lakuin rasanya not good enough buat dapet grade yang oke.

gw mungkin salah satu anak fk yang paling santai. gw ngga pernah terlalu stres akan sesuatu, gw ngga pernah begadang, selalu tidur siang, selalu berusaha ngikutin film-film baru di bioskop, tetep ngegym, tetep happy. bukan karena gw jenius, nilai gw ngga gemilang, cukup buat lulus aja. bukannya gw ngga pernah takut ngga lulus, gw selalu, selalu takut ngga lulus, siapa sih yang ngga takut ngga lulus? tapi gw berpikir ngga ada gunanya juga terlalu khawatir mikirin sesuatu, terlalu panik sama hidup. maksud gw, hidup cuma sekali, dan rasanya ngga penting buat terlalu stres mikirin kuliah. toh gw ngga berambisi buat jadi dokter nomer satu di dunia.

tapi kadang ada saatnya dimana gw ngga punya pilihan lain selain buat belajar. terkadang gw belajar sambil marah, kenapa coba harus belajar bahan segini banyak, dikira otak semua orang otak einstein kali. tapi udah hampir setaun gw di fk, gw mulai berhenti marah. mulai menerima. mulai bisa menyesuaikan diri. mulai tau segimana porsi belajar yang gw butuhin supaya ujian lumayan dan setidaknya lulus. walopun jantungan sih tetep jantungan kalo denger pengumuman ujian udah ditempel.

belakangan ini ada satu ungkapan yang banyak beredar diantara anak fk, we have no life cause we have to save yours. banyak yang setuju. hampir semua setuju. gw ngga setuju. kata siapa gw ngga punya kehidupan? gw punya kok. mau ngapain coba kita ngga punya hidup buat menyelamatkan hidup orang lain? kita semua punya hak buat live our life to fullest. ngga semua orang ditakdirkan jadi Mother Teresa. maksudnya have no life itu apa? belajar terus tiap hari? yah, ngejalanin apapun ngga ada yang gampang, tapi tergantung dari sudut pandang apa kita ngeliatnya. jadi jangan lebay, bersyukur, dan bersenang senanglah.

ini gw nulis disaat gw lagi waras. hahaha. besok mungkin gw akan kembali marah marah kenapa gw mau masuk fk dan merasa sepertinya gw salah jurusan. tapi kalo waktu itu dateng, gw bisa balik baca post ini lagi, kembali memandang pilihan buat masuk fakultas ini dengan sudut pandang yang berbeda, dan bersyukur.

ngga semua orang punya kesempatan kayak kita.

DON'T STRESS!

If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now?

Dear Claire, "What" and "If" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will. All my love, Juliet.

- Letters to Juliet

from grey's with love

CRAZY BEST QUOTES FROM GREY'S ANATOMY!

“Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.” - Meredith

"From now on, you can expect that I'm gonna show up. Even if I yell. Even if you yell. I'm always gonna show up. Okay?" - Derek

“Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big 'pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window', unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.” - Meredith

"She's my person. If I murdered someone, she's the person I'd call to help me drag the corpse across the living room floor. She's my person." - Yang

"The expected is what keeps us steady. It's the unexpected that changes our lives forever." - Meredith

"If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it." - Meredith

"I'm not gonna get down on one knee,
I'm not gonna ask you a question,
I love you, Meredith Grey,
and I wanna spend the rest of my life, with you." - Derek